Category: Children

Sophea T. Amari

Relax, take it easy

“Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths, or the turning inwards in prayer for five short minutes” ~ Etty Hillesum My dearest E., Let me share a brief folly of mine with you, a folly caused of my wanderings into unchartered regions- the information …

Sophea T. Amari

The “F” word

By the “F” word, I mean THAT “F” word. The one that means “to copulate”. I think children have an innane ability to store things, in particular, words, they hear in their little computer-like memories. It’s like a huge recess with lots of tiny compartments with different labels. E.G. words I’ve heard once; words I …

Sophea T. Amari

Being Ill

“I enjoy convalescence. It is the part that makes the illness worthwhile” ~ George Bernard Shaw My dearest E., There is no rest for the weary. Your father and I fell ill with the viral flu over the weekend. At first, the illness crept through us quietly and steadily, showing no physical signs of mutation, …

Sophea T. Amari

The auditions

“When you are modelling, you are creating a picture, a still life, perhaps something like a silent film. You convey emotion but you are only using your body” ~ Helena Christensen My dearest E., Your father and I, when you were born, had, and still do have, the highest hopes and dreams for you. You …

Sophea T. Amari

All apologies

“Sorry seems to be the hardest word” ~ Sir Elton John My dearest E., I’m sorry. And I don’t have a problem saying ‘sorry’ when it needs to be said. And why am I sorry? Because I have been busy at work. Because I had to leave you with your grandparents last night as I …

Sophea T. Amari

I Wonder…

1. Where women (who’ve had children) derive their motherly instinct from? And likewise, where women (who’ve had children) derive the animalistic instinct not to care for their young ones anymore? 2. Why, despite feminist movements, women’s equality debates, promising career advancements, the balance of the power struggle, and blurring of the gender demarcation and their …

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I Want a Baby

So I’m already a mother. I have a beautiful 20-month old daughter. I’m still fat, though, from my excess pregnancy weight, which I’ve failed to lose since I delivered E. Yesterday, my mind had a conversation with my body: Mind: Oh, how I want another baby! I love E., but it would be so nice …

Sophea T. Amari

I Wanna Know

Dear Grandma, I am happy to tell you that we have settled down in our new house. Everything is ok. I was sad when we had to leave you but I’m feeling a little better now cos I have my own room. Ginny just cries and cries all day, I think she misses her boyfriend. …

Sophea T. Amari

My daughter

Having my daughter changed my life- completely. Suddenly, everything that was difficult to deal with in this world, all the problems that I had faced: they disintegrated when I looked into her eyes, my eyes…. My problems, financial, work, or otherwise, which were once central in my life, no longer glared at me from the …