Category: Musings

Sophea T. Amari

It’s been a while

And I know that. While I am here, experimenting with a weight loss supplement, trying to do better at my job, praying for that mid-year promotion, going about the everyday motions of a regular day in the life of LPL, someone out there has already lost weight, got that mid-year promotion, and is living life ecstatically. …

Sophea T. Amari

Reflection

It’s a brand new year, and I’m no closer to my goal of reducing my weight by 20 kgs than I was 2 years ago when I insisted this was what I was going to do. As I age through the years, my willpower diminishes, my sense of discipline is transferred to keep order in …

Sophea T. Amari

Fall from grace

It still feels surreal to me. I’d always thought of myself as being accomplished, confident and certainly much higher than average at what I do. I pushed myself to limits I had never known possible. I battled asthma attacks in the office, but willed myself to stay on in the name of responsibility and doing …

Sophea T. Amari

A Problem

You have a problem, he says. Because he is my husband and he says this, like he is perfect, I resent him. I get angry. I become defensive. I cook up reasons why I don’t have a problem. I tell him, this is my money. I’ve earned it through sheer hard work. I want to spoil …

Sophea T. Amari

Age

When I was younger, I could never comprehend why grown-up women would spend so much time and money on beauty and cosmetic products. I saw no difference in their complexions. As I sat at high-teas with my mum and her friends, they’d rave about the latest beauty product in the market: guaranteed to reduce cellulite …

Sophea T. Amari

I.need.to.detox.

Over the weekend, I was feeling the worst I had ever had in my life. Alright, maybe that was an exaggeration. But I did feel terrible: bloated and sluggish, with a bulging tummy. It didn’t help that on Saturday evening, Hubs, Bubs, my cousin and I were stuck in the car for 3 hours, journeying …