Month: June 2007

Sophea T. Amari

All apologies

“Sorry seems to be the hardest word” ~ Sir Elton John My dearest E., I’m sorry. And I don’t have a problem saying ‘sorry’ when it needs to be said. And why am I sorry? Because I have been busy at work. Because I had to leave you with your grandparents last night as I …

Sophea T. Amari

Sight

Monochrome lights Staring into my eyes Bleak.. Dreary… Blinded by my sight. Ugly in my majesty The sun lingers in the sky And I cling to the willows My eyes are a curse. My slippers and shoes The greens and blues I have a wart on my toe Because the doctor stole my purse. Lotion …

Sophea T. Amari

Cool

I’ve not been anything but scorching hot Soared with passions all aflame But when he gently let me down, told me “This is not a rejection”- (but it was!) To tepid. Then to Cool again. It was like this as I recall My emotions, registering on Richter, Rippling on the equator And I thought my …

Sophea T. Amari

I Wonder…

1. Where women (who’ve had children) derive their motherly instinct from? And likewise, where women (who’ve had children) derive the animalistic instinct not to care for their young ones anymore? 2. Why, despite feminist movements, women’s equality debates, promising career advancements, the balance of the power struggle, and blurring of the gender demarcation and their …

Sophea T. Amari

I Want a Baby

So I’m already a mother. I have a beautiful 20-month old daughter. I’m still fat, though, from my excess pregnancy weight, which I’ve failed to lose since I delivered E. Yesterday, my mind had a conversation with my body: Mind: Oh, how I want another baby! I love E., but it would be so nice …

Sophea T. Amari

I Wanna Know

Dear Grandma, I am happy to tell you that we have settled down in our new house. Everything is ok. I was sad when we had to leave you but I’m feeling a little better now cos I have my own room. Ginny just cries and cries all day, I think she misses her boyfriend. …

Sophea T. Amari

Solitude in Silence

I once attended a 10-day meditation retreat in Surat Thani, Thailand. My first time there, I was 16 years old and clueless, embarking on a journey to discover myself spiritually. I was young and reckless, my parents were horrified at first at the thought that I wanted to travel to Thailand by myself. But they …

Sophea T. Amari

Within Your Box

Do you work your sacred routine And cast yourself into the plexiglas dome Polishing your shoes until they shine Finding a sanctuary that you call home? Do you look into your eyes Pernicious judging in your mind About your temperance and style Getting more than you bargained for? Do you whisk the dust from under …