Conditioning the mind- but the heart?

Conditioning. You must condition yourself to be prepared for the worst. So that you can handle it. So that it doesn’t come as a shock to you.

Please don’t say that, Daddy.

You know it needs to be said. That this is reality. I’m very happy that I’ve lived a good and full life. So I am ready in the event I need to leave. I’ve conditioned myself to think this way, and you should, too. So it doesn’t come as a shock. I’m an old man. It’s bound to happen.

Can we not talk about this now?

We should, because you need to know what to do. I want you to be strong to take care of things when I’m not around. I’m telling you this because you’re my hope. So you must be brave and face reality.

I don’t like this very much, Daddy. I don’t like it when we have to talk about these things. About mortality.

It’s a fact of life. Sometimes I get scared too. When I go to bed at night, I think, could I wake up from this sleep in the morning? I’m no longer afraid anymore though. I’ve accepted this as a fact.

No. I can’t imagine you not being around. I don’t want to.

You must not fall to pieces. Our family needs you. Your daughter needs you. You must be strong. You know that I love you all very, very much. When I do go, you must let me go. And you must go on with strength and faith.

Okay, Daddy. I know.